Now.

I don't know why, but I feel quite bad these days ago. Shcool is boring, I'm not acting very nice at theater stuff, my family is shit... Boys are boring too. I don't know how to start a relation. I don't like the boys that I've been with. Or maybe I miss them. I'm so confused and I feel useless.

That's cool. 

You just feel like shit the whole time.