Summer. XIII

Right now, we are in Madrid.
Yes. We.
Livia came with us to Madrid.
I was really excited, we were going to have an awesome time. And we are having it!

Yesterday we went to Madrid City, we walked all around the touristic places. Livia enjoyed it very much. I did it too. I like being like a city guide. It's funny and amusing.

Between Sevilla and Banco de España. 

We went to the Museo del Prado, walked along Paseo del Prado, through Neptuno and Cibeles, until Banco de España. Then we went to Puerta del Sol, and stepped the  "Kilómetro 0", where all the spanish radial roads start.

Livia's feet (left) and mines (right). Sorry for having ugly toes.

We went to the Plaza Mayor and had a "bocadillo de calamares", in english, battered squids sandwich. Typical from Madrid. It sounds disgusting, but is one of the best meals ever. I swear.

After lunch we walked a bit and got a bit lost. We took a bus to Plaza de España and walked along the Gran Vía.

We went up to the 9th floor of a mall called El Corte Inglés in Callao. There are some restaurants and shops. The views are awesome.

Gran Via view from that place.

We also went to Fuencarral, and Plaza del Dos de Mayo, to have kinda spanish milkshake called horchata. Loevely.

The we went to the Retiro Park to have a nap.

That's all. It was a busy day. I loved it. If you come to Spain anytime, I could show the city. You would be lucky ;) .

Summer. XII

This is it, like my bff says. Not for summer, almost. For Comillas.
I had a wonderful time there. Sometimes I felt sad, and homesick. I told you.
But, God, it was much better than last summer. And next time is gonna be better. I swear.
The evening before leaving Comillas, Livia and I went to the square to have an ice cream. Hazelnut flavor, as always. Delicious, as always.

Livia chose mint and blackberry. Absolutely awesome.

Hazelnut wins.

After dinner we went to a club (well, I should say "the club", 'cause we always go to the same one) and danced, and have a lot of fun, yo' know what I mean ;) .

Before going there, Yokin, Livia's cousin, filled some water balloons with water, and painted some funny faces on each one.

Yokin's balloons.

I really love all Lamadrid family. They are such incredible people.

Summer. X

I'm in Comillas. In this fucking village. I get really bored. Really, really bored.

I'm a city girl, I need to have lots of places to go, lots of options and things to do. And being able to do it by myself. Here, if you want to go somewhere, you need a car. Of course, I'm fifteen years old and I can't drive.

An example. I need new trousers but I can't buy any here because there's no shops, no nothing. The nearest Zara is 30min by car. My mother says that I can buy some trousers here, in the village. Well, yes, I could. But not jeans. And I don't mind having other kind of trousers, I don't care. But I have nothing to wear with a color trousers or these kind of huge indian ones. I love that kind. But, holy shit. I'm not buying that kind because I'm not wearing it here.

Having dinner at the port.

Church's roof.

Black beetle

My hair.

I also have to read a shitty book.

I'm glad that I'm leaving in less than ten days.

I really love everyone here, but it's terribly boring. It's rainy, and cloudy and cold and shit. We can't even go to the beach, for crying out loud.

I think I will go to buy some stuff to make some bracelets or something.

I don't have really cool pics to share. I'll post some random ones.

Summer. XI

These days ago I was feeling really bad, sad, depressed. I didn't really know why. Perhaps because I feel homesick and too young. Perhaps I miss my city and my friends.
I used to want to cry at every time. For no reason. Most of the times I did it.
Yesterday I was trying to read a book about emotions and stuff. A really good one. But it made me feel sad and tired. And asdfghjkl.
But I talked with Livia and she made me feel better. She always does it.
Later I went with Jimena and Paula (Livia's sister, God, I do have to write about this family relationships, it's a complete mess) for a walk and we talked about lots of things. I talked them about my bulimia stuff and I made feel much better. Those three girls are absolutely awesome. Such a wonderful people.

Me.

My gorgeous sister.

Jimena, being terribly happy.

Paula's tumblr hair, and Jimena being a pro fotographer.

Paula, as beautiful as always.

I'm not reading my shitty book.
But I'm feeling better, much much better. Thank you, Lamadrid girls.
I'm homesick, but I'm surviving.
By the way, Livia is coming to Madrid with us!!! I'm really really excited about that!

xoxo

Summer. IX

Yesterday we woke up at 12:30 in the morning. We were worried about getting grounded, but luckily I didn't.

At the evening we went to the beach and sunbathed. The sea water is terribly cold and I will never go for a swim in there. Never, I swear.

My bikini is so perfect.

This is how Cantabric beaches look like. Such a lovely place.

Livia and I tuesday night.

Summer. VIII

On tuesday we stayed all morning lying on the bed and doing nothing. Lazy tuesday, I guess.

At evening we went to this karts stuff. I guess you guys know what it is about. They are small cars that you cant drive also without having a driving licence. It's pretty cool.

At the begging I was super scared and I didn't want to drive. Finally, I don't know how, I went on one of those awful karts and drove. It was fun, I'll have to tell.

Girls in the car.
(from left to right: Paula, Jimena, Ishtar and me.)

The circuit.

Livia holding hydrangea flowers in the car.

After the first night here I began to feel better and more confident. Monday night something really cute and lovely happened. We were introducing some guys and stuff and Jimena said “This is Livia, my cousin.” And then I asked Jimena “Soo, what am I?” and she said “My sister!”. I felt like, you know, like “in the family”. I felt, inside.

So, It's nothing much to tell.

We all together.
(from left to right: 1st row; Carla, Jacobo, Ishtar, Livia, Cristina, Bosco, and me.
2nd row; Paula, Alba, Jimena and Mateo.)

Summer. VII

So, here I am again.

Now I am in Comillas, Cantabria, in the north of Spain. It is quite cold and rainy. Pf. I hate it. However, I'm at my mother's boyfriend's house with all his family. They are lots of people! It's full of teens and it's pretty fun. Livia is one of Claudio's nieces (Claudio is my mother's boyfriend, by the way). Livia is fifteen years old like me. She's tall, blonde, blue eyes. Absolutely beautiful! I really like her, she's funny and kind, such a lovely girl. She has two older sister who look exactly like her. I am also with Jimena, Claudio's daughter. She's almost seventeen. Omg, she is soooo pretty and slim. Like all the teenagers girls here. That's one of the things that make me feel scared and unconfident when I was coming to Comillas. Because I see all of them completely perfect and blonde and beautiful and slim and, well. I feel like I am not. I feel... I don't feel fat, that is something wonderful, I'm not 'angry' with my body. I just feel kinda ugly sometimes. But then I look at my reflection on the mirror, put some red lipstick on and smile like I'm being absolutely happy. And, in part, I'm.

Livia.

Livia's perfect blonde hair. I'm totally in love with it.

Yesterday we went to the cinema and we watched quite a good movie. I really enjoyed it. I had some black liquorice (my absolutely favorite sweet) and M&M's. Completely delicious.

The movie's name is Now You See Me. Jesse Eisenberg is in the movie, and I am absolutely in love with him. The movie is about some illusionists who pull of bank heists during their performances and reward their audiences with the money. It's pretty cool. I recommend it to you, guys.

yummy.

At night we went to a club to dance and have some drinks and fun. We had a good time.

Summer. VI

Last saturday I was in Altea with Elisa and my whole family. Chema, my cousin, was coming in the evening. It was going to be lots of fireworks because it was a celebration and party day in the small town. We were so excited! Lots of people were coming to have dinner and watch the firework's festival. The fireworks were going to be launched from the ocean. They were placed on five different floating platforms. And you have a perfect view of the sea from my house. I hadn't watched them for five years or more!

Fireworks. So awesome.

Some of my uncle's and grandmother's friends came, and surprisingly I discovered that they were coming with their sons, who were teens! Omg, we had a lot of fun, we laughed a lot and we were joking at every moment. They are such a kind and funny guys, I'll have to say it. I'm glad that I am meeting them again in Madrid.

On sunday, we had to leave. Elisa needed to go to Besalú, Girona, and I had to go with my mom and sister to Comillas. I really wanted to go to Besalú with Elisa. I'm missing her that much that my stomach hurts. I want to see her more, not just two or three times at year. She is my very best friend, she is the one that despite of living thousand kilometres away from each other, she is going to be there for me when I need her. And I am gonna be there for her when she needs me.

I really really really miss her. I can't, or maybe I don't want, to wait until Christmas to see her again. Hopefully we are meeting in October, perhaps. If she doesn't come to Spain I might rush to Vicálvaro (private joke for Elisa, sorry hehe).

omg, I love her so much.

Summer. IV

Yesterday we went on a excursion to a mountain at the beach. We didn't have appropriate shoes for it, but well, who cares. My uncle, Elisa and I climbed up the mountain, and my aunt and my sister stayed at the beach. 

We couldn't go to the top because I got vertigo. Silly me.

When we went down we went to the beach; it was really nice and we went for a refreshing swim. 

We decided to go on a bike ride to a small lighthouse up on a hill. It's a really cool ride but we were kinda tired. So, whatever.

It was sooo cool and so tiring. When we arrived up there, we were so f*cking tired and I was sweating so much, my face was completely wet. We took some photos and stuff.

Lovely views, and Elisa taking photos. 

Happy me, Elisa and uncle. 

When we were going down, my bike's wheel broke. I don't know how it happened. We thought that it was a flat, but the thing was that the wheel was just broken. We walked until the seafront were my grandma's sister was waiting with the car to pick up one of us and the broken bike. Elisa and I cycled on the same bike down the street. Oh my God, that was so fun. We were laughing and shouting to the people on the bike-lane. Just crazy! Funniest thing ever, I swear!

More views from the lighthouse. 

I really like being with Elisa. I miss her very much during the school year, because we talk by Skype and stuff but, well you know. It is absolutely not the same. I can't think about leaving her in some weeks. I'm not gonna think about it.

I definitely can not live without her.

How beautiful we are. 

And you guys, should check her blog right now.

www.eventhesun-setsinparadise.blogspot.com 

So finally we arrived at the restaurant that we were going to have dinner with my grandma and my sister. We had a delicious pizza.

Then we had to go back home, and one bike was broken so, one of us (Elisa or me) had to go home cycling. We threw a coin to see which one of us had to cycle. Of course, I lost. I am such a looser.

At the begging I was very scared because I didn't have a light on my bike, it was 00h in at the night and it was really dark. I felt a bit anxious, but I didn't want to vomit. Because I don't want to and also because I don't feel like needing it. I know it doesn't help.

However, the ride back was not that bad. The best thing was getting home and jumping on the pool. It feels like heaven. 

Really happy me, and uncle there behind.

However, we all enjoyed the day! 

This evening my parents are coming to my grandma's house to spend the weekend. They are separated, but it is a really good ambience bweteen them and I really like it. However it is still weird to spend a weekend all together in the same house. Because they have their respective boyfriend and girlfriend and stuff.

I don't know if I want to see my father, because I don't really like him now. I feel kinda mean when I say that, but it is the truth. I don't really know what I don't like of him, it is like the way he does everything, the way he tells you the things. Since I told my parents about being bulimic, he seems to me like he is doing everything wrong. I don't know how must he do whatever, I just don't like the way he is doing now. That makes me feel sad.

But I have my mother. I don't know what would I do without her. It is a lot of confidence bweteen us and I know I can trust her and she knows she can trust me. I haven't seen my mother for a month, since July 9th, I've missed her so much.

I'm getting better with this bulimia's stuff. I'm really proud of it and I feel much stronger than some months ago, like in Easter. Now, as I told in the post before, I don't feel like vomiting. I don't need it. And that makes me feel so happy and proud.

People say that I'm such a brave girl . Oh God, I have to recognise and believe that I am.

I have been so scared and lost in this school year, until I talked with one of my school's best friends and then talked to her mother who is a psychology, and to my teacher and to my parents. It was really hard but I did it. And it is the best thing I have ever made. 

I know this is so random, but I have to say that I also miss my cat. Her name is Ginger, but she is not ginger. She is ten years old. I have her since June, she was a friend's cat, but now my friend is going to a boarding school in England, her parents are moving to Dubai and her brother and sister are living in the USA. So the poor cat has no one to stay with. And that's why I got a cat. Now I'm really in love with her and she's the cutest and the fattest cat ever. She sleeps with me every night and jumps on my desk when I'm doing homework. She is old and fat. I love her.

She is Ginger. The most beautifulest cat ever. 

Talking about homework...

I don't want to start the school year. It is gonna be weir because most of my best friends are leaving three months, the whole year or for ever. Well, God, not for ever. I will see them because we all live in Madrid and that's pretty cool. I love living in Madrid.

My little sister is coming to my school. She used to go to a smaller school that is until 6th grade on primary school, she's going on 4th grade but she's coming because it is a place in the 4th class because one of the students left. She doesn't really want to because she's leaving her own school, with all her friends and teachers and stuff. I wouldn't want to, too. 

This is like fucking long and I don't know if anyone gives a fuck about this but, meh, who cares. 

Summer. V

Today we woke at half past five because  we wanted to see the dawn. We are totally crazy and that's lovely. 

So we tried not to make a lot of noise and took the cameras, some jackets and the towels to use them as a blanket while we were lying on the pool's chaise lounge. We took the keys to open the door and went outside. I was really worried about my aunt getting angry and us getting grounded.

This is before the sunrise. 

I took some really cool pics with my camera. I will post it whenever I get a computer and wifi. 

And then, the sun woke up too.

In the afternoon we decided to take a nap, and the thing is that I was really sleepy, but I couldn't take it. It is impossible for me. I am spanish and all that stuff, but I am not able to take a f*cking nap. And when I can, it is the most lovely feeling ever. I can be really tired, I can close my eyes but I can't fall asleep. I am like stupid or something.

Summer. III

After England I came back to Spain, exactly to Mazarrón, Murcia. I stayed there for one week. I met incredible people there, had much fun and enjoyed very much.

I was very happy because my best friend was coming to Mazarrón and then we were going to Altea, Alicante, to my grandma's hause. That was going to be awesome.

Her name is Elisa. I know her for fifteen years. I spent my first summer with her, and since then we spend every summer together! The fact is that she lives in Luxembourg and, well, I don't. Despite of that, we meet every Christmas, Easter and summer holidays. I definitely love her. I wouldn't be the same without her. Her clear mind and the way that she resolves the most difficult situation when I get mad and stressed is something that i can't live without and something that I miss when we are separated. I'm the red sparks and she is the fresh blue water that calm and relaxes the most difficult moment. It doesn't mean that she's absolutely serious and moderate. She is also crazy and cheerful, always with a smile on her face and finding the funny part in everything. I definitely would not be the same with out her.

We are beautiful, we know. 

Now we are in Altea, having a great time. The weather is terribly hot and we just love it. We spend the day tanning, swimming in the pool and going to the beach. It feels like paradise!

Evenings in Altea. Really stressful, isn't it?

Sunday we went by swim to a really near island. We were snorkeling and watching all the little fishes. Lovely.

Here you can see in the sea a small island. Yep. We went there. And by the way, I'm in love with this book. 

Then last night we were so f*cking bored with our phones just doing nothing. And then my uncle come and lied down in my bed. He started talking and making jokes. Then my aunt came and she lied down in Elisa's bed. It was fun and amusing. We started listening some music, my uncle asked me for a David Bowie's song called Space Oddity (now Elisa and I are in love with that song, you should listen it). We also listened to the Bee Gees and laughed a lot. I loved it because, as I told in other post, my family is always angry an that's quite sad; so a bit of happiness is a lot of happiness.

It was like 1am almost 2am and my uncle and aunt went to bed. Elisa and I were horribly hot and decided to go for a swim in the pool. We waited until 3am, mean while we danced, sang, wrote in my diary and wrote behind the door 'Hakuna Matata' and some cute things. I hope my family won't see it never! Then we opened the door and went outside. Just before jumping on the pool, we heard some noises and we ran as quick as we could to hide somewhere. Somebody appeared with a white towel around his/her. Elisa was trying so bad not to laugh, I was so worried. The person was my aunt, and I was worrying about getting grounded. But the thing is that she was going for a swim too! So we swam together and talked and stuff so nice.

This is what we wrote. Yes, I drew the ying yang. And yes, I need more practice.  That kinda weird 'E' is our friend's simbol. Because we are worth it. 

Today we went to the 'Thousand Fishes Beach' that is such a cool stony beach with turquoise water and lots of blue fishes. We went snorkelling and enjoyed it very much. 

Absolutely lovely beach. 

By the way; Elisa has a blog too, the URL is

www.eventhesun-setsinparadise.blogspot.com

Summer. II

So, in England I did lots of things and had much fun, but I didn't take many pictures so I won't talk a lot about this. I just want to say that I went to Liverpool and visit all the Beatles stuff. It was awesome, that's all I can say.

John Lennon's glasses. 

Strawberry Fields. 

Railway somewhere in Southampton.